Cheater Cheater!!

I have tons of posts saved that i never quite finished, so I'm going to finish them and back-post them. I'll make sure to post when i am totally done cheating by back-posting.

until then, here is a lovely lolli for you to enjoy...but you must share it with the pink monkey!

All quiet on the home front

Everyone is asleep, the house is quiet. I really need to head to bed myself, but these quiet evenings are awfully nice. It was really a great day...wake up early to see sweetie off fishing; snuggle down with the princess and wake up later with her whapping me in the face; big breakfast; trip to target for little presents; leisurely evening. I got a fantastic present for and early mothers day - a Nintendo Wii! I have always wanted a video game, and this one is so cool. It's not isolating like other game systems are - we bowled and golfed and it was great!

My mind is too busy lately. I really focus on the unstable things - money mostly - in the back of my head. I need to remember that I have the capability to make everything stable and manage our money well. I just need to do what it takes.

26 days away

As of today, I am 26 days away from my due date. I am due to deliver Babytron on October 2nd. God only knows if I'll be early or late. God is also the only one who knows if the baby is a boy or a girl. I'm a little sad today, so for some reason this is the day i chose for my first post.

It's been a tough few months. We moved to our new house in the first week of June. The next week I went into the hospital for a monster kidney stone. after finally getting it removed 2 weeks later, I have a break - then I got an "indelicate" infection that led to a small in office surgery. Then I for a break for a few weeks...then a bad cold. Then a break for a few weeks...then a recurrence of the indelicate infection which will necessitate more real surgery after the baby get here. I'm tired.

I don't know what's going to happen with work. I'm worried about money, how much debt we are in, too much pressure on sweetie to be the sole provider, my anxiety, my propensity towards depression...sigh. It's a tough day. Why does everything hit you so hard all at once? I really just want to go home and sleep, but i have to drive for an hour, feed the puppy, make some supper, go grocery shopping, do some laundry, and other stuff.

I'm tired. I feel a ton of pressure right now, and I just want to run away and escape. Here's hoping i feel better tomorrow. probably not, but we'll see.